I'm looking for more insight into what this year has to offer us as we wait and watch. This week owls popped up many times. The super cute owes that are so fuzzy you could die (scene from Despicable Me)! We've had owls come up before and I recall something about 'who'. This gave me pause. To be honest,I am a bit upset that this message is on repeat. I still struggle with who I am.
Well, maybe struggle isn't the right word. How do I explain? For a long time I have believed there was something I need to do in this life time, something important. After I started writing my blog in 2014 I thought I was onto something and I could relax. Putting myself out there as a writer AND intuitive made me feel so vulnerable- it had to be the antidote to my angst. Then I completed my first book, that helped some, for a while.
Yesterday I watched Marie Forleo. (I love her! She is funky, spunky and beautiful!) interview Dani Shapiri. I clicked on it because the title was, "The Writing Process and the Myth of Inspiration." When they started talking about the courage to write I began to cry. You see, I started writing my memoir in September and bawl the entire time I write and edit. This writing exercise has me completely aware of when I sensor myself in my writing and my talking. This awareness is causing me a great deal of pain.
I need to ask you, "Who are you?"
I need to ask myself, "Who are you?"
And I need to repeat the message from 2 weeks ago, "What are you trying to say?" "What impact would you like to have on the world?" "What legacy do you want to leave?"
Dani Shapiro's advice is to ask yourself if it is true (what you say and what you write) and if it is useful.
I want to ask you that too. Are you just mindless repeating others? (Parrot message from last week.) Are you true to yourself? Do you honor yourself, weekly, hourly, daily, hourly?
How do you know if you are not? Remember the post I did on Emotions being gears in a car? Emotions like: guilt, frustration, irritation, fear and anxiety - these are your clues. If others insight these in you remember they are just reflecting back to you what you would like to change about yourself.
The irony that I use Numerology to help people find themselves is not lost on me. I bet my entire family is laughing at this. Maybe they are even wondering if I am qualified to help others if I can't even figure it out for myself.
The 11 energy of 2018 is gunna make us more sensitive (2) and shine a light (Illumination, energy of the 11) on things to help us be true to ourselves (1 energy, twice!). Can you handle this? Are you ready?
I think I am. And I am grateful, so grateful we can help each other.
Love and Light,
PS here is a post from one of my fav websites repeating this message by encouraging us to be authentic- CLICK HERE